UniTEd

     Everyone makes mistakes. It’s human. People are human. I forgive them and myself. I forgive them for being like me and I forgive myself for being like them. The population of this world is growing in complications. I forgive that too. I forgive this century.

             I forgive Charline for ditching me and being a follower. I forgive Lindsay for being a difficult friend and being obsessed with popularity. I forgive Chantal for changing too much, losing her true happiness and probably being the biggest follower out of all of us. I forgive desiree for being a total follower and besides that, a perfect person. I forgive tim for ditching me and the rest of us for that annoying girl, but I’m so glad to know that you’re still and will always be yourself. I forgive calvin too for changing too much and turning into a total douche bag. I hope they can forgive me for being mistaken. I hope tim and calvin can forgive me for not thinking they were my real friends. I miss you guys so much. I miss you two the most. I hope erika, hiedi, and megan can forgive me for ditching them for the ones who eventually ditched me. karma. It wasn’t on purpose, I was just extremely ignorant in high school. I’m not exactly a social being, but I wish I was better at oral communication so I wouldn’t loathe people so much. I forgive myself for judging people, literally, 24/7... whenever I see anyone on the streets or in a car or in a store. It just goes to show how low my self-confidence is. I really am sorry for all the trouble I’ve caused in the past with people, most of it was unintentional. Like I said, I’m socially awkward, but I’m working on it. In fact, I think I might even take an acting and oral communications class just so I can get past this stage. It needs to end. I need to move on with hating people so much. And who I’m really hating, obviously, in turn is myself. Everything in life reciprocates, like karma. I forgive my literal neighbours for being my next door neighbours and blocking my ocean view from my old room. No! Really, I do... I forgive them. 
                Lastly, I forgive my family for not being the family I have created in my head. Gosh! They’re so great though... you really ought to meet them. I forgive my dad for being a total loser when he drinks that I hate to even think about it, let alone bring it up in my mind. I forgive him for being theeee biggest narcissist, besides me, that I’ve ever known. I forgive my brother for being a total ass whole to me, just because I’m an easy target(know it won’t last for long). I forgive my brother for always never really being there for me. You’re probably the hardest person to forgive out of everyone, because it’s not that hard to be a loving sibling or at least I didn’t think it was. You didn’t and don’t have to make everything so dramatic and difficult. Just fucking relax, please! Just stop being yourself. Like I said, you’re the hardest one to forgive. I just don’t understand how hard it is to be a brother to your sister, your only sister. Even if you don’t always understand her... remember, everything reciprocates. I forgive my mother for being a terrible person. I forgive her for being terrible at parenting when I was being raised. I forgive her for being bipolar. I forgive her for thinking she’s always right. i forgive her for being so unloving. I forgive her for being unconditional. I forgive her for making me into a cold-hearted bitch and telling me that I’m not the person I used to be anymore. “What happened to my sweet girl?” I forgive you for not being my mother.

Rene Gruau